Hello Everyone!
Thank you so much for all of your prayers in my behalf they are so so so appreciated!
This week started out pretty hard for me. After a series of really truly unfortunate events I began to get super down on myself. Satan was trying super hard to get me discouraged, he tried to drown me in my own pity, and I am very sad to say that it was working. I was being sad and not the happy Mariel I usually am. Obviously this made me even more sad. I began to realize not only was my sad heart affecting me, but my whole district as well. And oh I hated it! How could I do this to my district? The whole mission thus far they could count on me to have a smile on my face and something funny to say to lift spirits. How could I let them down? After a day of solemnity I finally asked for a blessing. Elder Daw jumped to the plate and was so excited to give me one, it was as though he had just been waiting for me to ask, so he was really excited when I finally did. He gave me such a beautiful blessing and the whole time he was speaking I could feel Heavenly Father's love pouring down on me. How grateful am I to this amazing Elder in my district that he was not only willing but worthy to give me such a great blessing. After I received the blessing I was the real Mariel again, and oh boy did I miss myself! It is so good to be back! And it seems as though after my blessing miracles were happening.
The night of my blessing I had the most wonderful dream, I dreamed of MY Ukrainians. My cute little girls and boys and all of the wonderful people of the Ukraine.Oh my goodness, oh my goodness just get me out there now! Heavenly Father knew that, that dream was exactly what I needed to get me going again. Then in class we watched the Kyiv, Ukraine temple dedication. Please when you get the time, please watch it. Meet MY people. My wonderful, amazing Ukrainians. Oh I can't wait. I can't wait to meet them, to speak to them, to love them, and to tell them of our Heavenly Father's love for them as well!
As all of you know, I am speaking Russian. Russian is beautiful, absolutely wonderful, I am so blessed to be learning this language. But just for fun I dare you to look at a Russian sentence and see what it looks like... did you do it? Crazy right? So I've been here for not quite a month yet, and the second day I was here I had to teach a lesson in this beautiful, wonderful, crazy, hard language.. scary! Ever since the second day we have been teaching at least one lesson per day. And what I have been doing is deciding what I want to say in English, then I translate it into Russian then I basically would just read my lesson, just like a script in a play. The thing about that was, as hard as I tried to have this emotion and conviction while I was teaching it just wasn't there because I was only reading words, I didn't really understand what I was saying and when my investigator would talk back to me I would just nod my head and smile, acting like I knew what he or she was saying then continued on with the script. The day I got my amazing blessing from Elder Daw, my heart changed a little. My companion and I were just about to go in a lesson with one of our investigators, so I said a prayer in my heart before we had our prayer together. After I prayed I felt the biggest prompting of "Get rid of your script! Speak from your heart!" Yeah right! I don't even know Russian! But, I knew it was right. Before we knocked on the door to meet with Makc (Max) I threw my notebook, with my script, back in the classroom. Sister Robertson just looked at me kind of funny but I could tell she was a little excited. We then continued with our prayer and knocked on the door. WE NAILED IT!!! When I say we I mean Sister Robertson, me, AND the spirit. I understood every word Makc said to us, not only that but I could confidently reply! The lesson went perfect and the spirit was so strong. Makc had a complete change of heart just from that one lesson. I know that had it not been for the spirit I could not have done that. The second I walked out the door I hit my knees and said the most heart felt prayer of thanks to my Father in Heaven. I could feel how proud of me He was and how grateful that I finally put ALL of my trust in Him. I now continue to give all my lessons without my "scripts" and there is such an incredible difference in the spirit! I know that as you continue in your day to day lives there may be things that you think that you could never do, but I know that as you put ALL of your trust in your Heavenly Father you will be able to accomplish these things.
My mission continues to be the best decision and have and will ever make in my life. I have no doubt in my mind that this is exactly where the Lord and my Heavenly Father want me to be. How grateful I am for this knowledge! How excited I am to bring it to MY Ukrainians! :) I know that there are people being prepared for me there, and I cannot wait to find them.
I BELONG TO THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATTER-DAY SAINTS. I KNOW WHO I AM. I KNOW GOD'S PLAN, I'LL FOLLOW HIM IN FAITH. I BELIEVE IN MY SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST I'LL HONOR HIS NAME. I'LL DO WHAT IS RIGHT, I'LL FOLLOW HIS LIGHT. HIS TRUTH I WILL PROCLAIM.
I love you all so much. Thank you for the love and support, I continue to feel your prayers, and I so appreciate them. :)
You all are the best! And since I am a missionary I'm going to commit you all to do something. Smile at EVERYONE you see! You never know who will need it, I promise you will make someone's day. Even if it isn't the person you smiled at, I know that you will have a better day.
You all are in my prayers keep up the good work. Remember, preach the gospel and when necessary use words. :)
Love,
Sister Lee
Thank you so much for all of your prayers in my behalf they are so so so appreciated!
This week started out pretty hard for me. After a series of really truly unfortunate events I began to get super down on myself. Satan was trying super hard to get me discouraged, he tried to drown me in my own pity, and I am very sad to say that it was working. I was being sad and not the happy Mariel I usually am. Obviously this made me even more sad. I began to realize not only was my sad heart affecting me, but my whole district as well. And oh I hated it! How could I do this to my district? The whole mission thus far they could count on me to have a smile on my face and something funny to say to lift spirits. How could I let them down? After a day of solemnity I finally asked for a blessing. Elder Daw jumped to the plate and was so excited to give me one, it was as though he had just been waiting for me to ask, so he was really excited when I finally did. He gave me such a beautiful blessing and the whole time he was speaking I could feel Heavenly Father's love pouring down on me. How grateful am I to this amazing Elder in my district that he was not only willing but worthy to give me such a great blessing. After I received the blessing I was the real Mariel again, and oh boy did I miss myself! It is so good to be back! And it seems as though after my blessing miracles were happening.
The night of my blessing I had the most wonderful dream, I dreamed of MY Ukrainians. My cute little girls and boys and all of the wonderful people of the Ukraine.Oh my goodness, oh my goodness just get me out there now! Heavenly Father knew that, that dream was exactly what I needed to get me going again. Then in class we watched the Kyiv, Ukraine temple dedication. Please when you get the time, please watch it. Meet MY people. My wonderful, amazing Ukrainians. Oh I can't wait. I can't wait to meet them, to speak to them, to love them, and to tell them of our Heavenly Father's love for them as well!
As all of you know, I am speaking Russian. Russian is beautiful, absolutely wonderful, I am so blessed to be learning this language. But just for fun I dare you to look at a Russian sentence and see what it looks like... did you do it? Crazy right? So I've been here for not quite a month yet, and the second day I was here I had to teach a lesson in this beautiful, wonderful, crazy, hard language.. scary! Ever since the second day we have been teaching at least one lesson per day. And what I have been doing is deciding what I want to say in English, then I translate it into Russian then I basically would just read my lesson, just like a script in a play. The thing about that was, as hard as I tried to have this emotion and conviction while I was teaching it just wasn't there because I was only reading words, I didn't really understand what I was saying and when my investigator would talk back to me I would just nod my head and smile, acting like I knew what he or she was saying then continued on with the script. The day I got my amazing blessing from Elder Daw, my heart changed a little. My companion and I were just about to go in a lesson with one of our investigators, so I said a prayer in my heart before we had our prayer together. After I prayed I felt the biggest prompting of "Get rid of your script! Speak from your heart!" Yeah right! I don't even know Russian! But, I knew it was right. Before we knocked on the door to meet with Makc (Max) I threw my notebook, with my script, back in the classroom. Sister Robertson just looked at me kind of funny but I could tell she was a little excited. We then continued with our prayer and knocked on the door. WE NAILED IT!!! When I say we I mean Sister Robertson, me, AND the spirit. I understood every word Makc said to us, not only that but I could confidently reply! The lesson went perfect and the spirit was so strong. Makc had a complete change of heart just from that one lesson. I know that had it not been for the spirit I could not have done that. The second I walked out the door I hit my knees and said the most heart felt prayer of thanks to my Father in Heaven. I could feel how proud of me He was and how grateful that I finally put ALL of my trust in Him. I now continue to give all my lessons without my "scripts" and there is such an incredible difference in the spirit! I know that as you continue in your day to day lives there may be things that you think that you could never do, but I know that as you put ALL of your trust in your Heavenly Father you will be able to accomplish these things.
My mission continues to be the best decision and have and will ever make in my life. I have no doubt in my mind that this is exactly where the Lord and my Heavenly Father want me to be. How grateful I am for this knowledge! How excited I am to bring it to MY Ukrainians! :) I know that there are people being prepared for me there, and I cannot wait to find them.
I BELONG TO THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATTER-DAY SAINTS. I KNOW WHO I AM. I KNOW GOD'S PLAN, I'LL FOLLOW HIM IN FAITH. I BELIEVE IN MY SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST I'LL HONOR HIS NAME. I'LL DO WHAT IS RIGHT, I'LL FOLLOW HIS LIGHT. HIS TRUTH I WILL PROCLAIM.
I love you all so much. Thank you for the love and support, I continue to feel your prayers, and I so appreciate them. :)
You all are the best! And since I am a missionary I'm going to commit you all to do something. Smile at EVERYONE you see! You never know who will need it, I promise you will make someone's day. Even if it isn't the person you smiled at, I know that you will have a better day.
You all are in my prayers keep up the good work. Remember, preach the gospel and when necessary use words. :)
Love,
Sister Lee
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